acts like he just crawled out of the gutter and walked into something full of rest, something restful. makes me wanna leave. and i dont like two face clowns unless he's got a counter part that says, "yeah he does that, watch out!" i dont think i'm that person.
i just know people are nice out there and they have a lot, and im not lost and i know where i belong, so i dont know how to get there without walking there with nothing on the plate. having my friend is more than i had before since i found more peace here than i had at my current roommates' place. and well that relationship will end. just dont know how? as long as the dark leaves and the faces leave, im sure all will be well again.
saw the girl at the walgreens greens and i like her but she reminds me of the roommate i have now. i dunno who i will choose to talk to since both are bitter.
as far as my friend? he needs to get outta bed. and happy he's not sleeping on the floor. when i do stay over i usually am in bed with him or next to him on the ground. i dont like childish people and i think he's been childish enough since i want to leave again. a week hasnt lasted long enough if i ran(walked) home today.
having nothing to do really puts a damper on life. i havent seen this since 1987 when i lost my life to lethargy. maybe passivity isnt for me and i dont enjoy having friends who live there.
father has nothing to do with this blog and neither does the roommate.
i do not want my new friend to stay in bed though, there no point to it. unless he's had a super fabulous life that needs no explanation than i see no point to being here. i do not like being ignored especially after having had attention from my past friendships? are we supposed to fight? i mean, fighting is a response to emotion and so is argument. and i argue well enough, but my new friend likes to bring logic into my reasoning and he doesnt know my reason for belief. i couldnt explain my belief either way.
plus alcohol makes him sleepy. i dont wanna drink with him cuz im afraid ill lose him and i know that i have nothing to bring to the new plate. as in, i dont like bithes and my new friend is being bitchy.
the reasons behind my attitude towards my new friend is not welcomed because i feel like im doing more than i need to simply for escapism.
and i know that i am now escaping my current roommate and attitude for something that felt awesome at the time, and i can tell that my new friend is also needing that. if not than i might be wasteign my time. i dunno.
two weeks might be enough.
it seemed to be right with all the rest. and i cant even spot them on the map anymore.
im really in need of a nice blow job.
but i cant "click" with anyone anymore. or anyone i can say this to, "i like you enough to be around you 24hrs a day, and not kick your ass."
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